Love/Hate

So, it's December.

A few days ago I posted a status update on my Facebook about December: "Oh, December. With you, you bring BIG football, BIG rumors and BIG Holidays. I love you."

I do love December. I think it's fun to watch the big football, the bowl games. I have always been one to love a good rumor and coaching/player rumors rank right up there! I mean after all, my family's livelihood and future sort of ride on those rumors! If so-and-so leaves, will we have a job? You never know. It's certainly not a given that if a head coach leaves that you'll go with him. So...back to the BIG football. Since I have been on Facebook a little over a year now I actually have come to hate bowl season. I understand that people are so emotionally attached to their football team, and say that they just want "bowl fairness" but sometimes it gets personal. So many people sent me messages about how Florida didn't deserve to be in the title game last year and it really upset me. I know the people behind this team. I know all the coaches, their wives and children and I personally know team members. Oh, also my very own husband works for them. So don't come and attack me about them or I will be very upset. I am not the BCS. I am actually relieved that Florida isn't in the title game this year because I don't want that again. I don't understand why people complain every year about a system that isn't looking to change in the near future due to various reasons (money!). Being in the position we are in, I see the politics behind college football, the perks that coaches get (lots of money) and especially players get (academically, etc.) and it makes me so angry. I've seen really good friends fired over "losing seasons" and it's just really sad.

That being said, maybe I should not have posted that status on my Facebook. Because now that I think about it, maybe I don't love college football as much as I used to. Sad! I don't love the rumors because they do affect my husband and my close friends; my only friends here. I have decided that I am no longer going to knock anyone for the team they have chosen to follow because I realize that there are deep emotions there too. And for all you Y fans out there that is going to be really, really hard for me. And my dislike for the Y goes back to my hate of the "politics" thing. No need to go there.

(I don't really know why I am posting this. I'm just a bit emotional today I guess. I'd blame it on PMS but since I'm pregnant I am void of periods. Did I remember my anti-depressant?? So, if I take this down, don't be surprised.)

I do, however, still really love the BIG Holidays of December and that is what I'm going to focus on. Scarlett's 2nd birthday is coming up, I can focus on Christmas (yay!), pack for and enjoy being in New Orleans, and try to have fun there with my kids, not worrying about the game too much, OR whether or not we're going to be in Gainesville much longer.

My Facebook today? "Jude and Sienna: together again?? Oh, and Tiger! What is your freaking problem??"